The waiting is the hardest part

I am having deja vu.

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9 Months

This time two years ago, temperatures ranged in the upper 70's to low 80's -

Now -

(with a side of rain and mud), temperatures range from the mid 30's to low 40's. Throw in a couple 20's here and there too.

We came home on Sunday night to a broken furnace. It was a very a cold night (about 10 degrees) and being 39 weeks pregnant with overtired kids, made everything almost laughable. Timing and all. We put the kids in warm pajamas and planned to sleep together in thick sleeping bags until the morning. We ended up agreeing it was just too cold. Time is something we really don't have much of right now with Eli due at any minute. We ended up calling the 24 hour furnace man to come fix things late that night. We were blessed he had the part that was needed to fix it right there on the spot. 

The next thing I knew, it was well past midnight and Josh and I were constructing plastic straw leprechaun ladders on the kitchen floor. I felt great appreciation that we get to experience this all together. The good. The bad. The crazy.

They did not catch the leprechaun this year but he did leave behind a wonderful array of green candy and silliness.

This little guy will be TWO on Sunday. His current likes- Elmo, dinosaurs, cars, books and food. He really loves food.

He's grown. I cannot even begin to find the words right now to describe the love we have for him. He'll be a big brother soon. Wow.

I sit wondering many things lately.

I wonder if Eli and Liam will be sharing a birthday. When and how? What will Eli be like? Who will he look like? Will we be celebrating Liam's birthday at the hospital? ...The waiting is becoming very difficult. I am both excited and scared. Ready. I know the pain that is to come. I also know the amazing moments to come. Moments that will be replayed and be apart of us forever. As long as we live. It's a big thing. 

I'm ready when you are, Eli. We're ready.